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Some will get the title now, some will get it later and some will miss it completely....

I'm laying here not sleeping and realized why I don't sleep as much because I spend a good portion of the night talking to myself. It's usually an internal conversation but I enjoy it because when I talk to myself there's never any confusion or misunderstanding. For whatever reason I get various statements, comments etc from people that make me think I'm communicating in a foreign language or that I need socializing 101. It gets frustrating to say simple straight forward things and get blazay ass replies that scream out "I'm really not that interested" or even worse, having my words taken for EVERYTHING but the most common and direct of meanings. And let's be clear this is only when communicating with women. But with me it goes a lil further. As I've said before I think of others in a lot of the things I do so if something is asked of me if it's not a huge inconvenience I'll do it. But often I'll hold a feeling of "was that really needed".

I know that I personally have a way of expressing myself that may take a degree of getting used to.Not because its rude or offensive or complex. It's just not the way average guys talk. I don't say what you "want" to hear if its not the reality of things. But I always say what I mean and mean what I say. A word I use a lot in speaking and in writing/text is "interesting". I've been told that that sounds like I'm disinterested......ooook.So when I was told that, I purposely cut back on using that word when chatting with my particular friend.I was told that when I say "Damn" in reply to less then positive news "it's not that supportive"....ooooook.I've been told by people how to talk or too make sure I talk more when meeting new people. Now I'm not the life of the party chatter box.Never have been, never will be but I swear to you this pisses me off to high heaven! I have friends and associates coming out the ass. I deal with a variety of people all day and across the damn country. Why does a nearly 30 yr old man need to be told how to speak?I wonder if it's just that curious female trait/need/characteristic that tells them they can change men?I don't know. What makes me double-take at this is that I never tell anyone to alter how they communicate with me in that manner. I let people do what they do. If your a lil excessive on the TMI I'll tell you and as I stated in the turn off blog I'd rather not hear tons of cursing but if you're not my partner its not so serious. Overall I let people be.

I know who's who and what to expect. Some people are more dramatic and over the top, some are more sexual and prone to TMI, some are bossy, some people give lengthy essays type statements, some drop ok with striking consistency, some are ghetto(even if they don't know it), etc,etc.....different communicative styles that I never try to change. And believe me, in the rare instances that I've attempted to spark change it doesn't happen. I change for others while others do what they do with no attempt of changing for me. No complaints. I just make mental notes. I'll always have myself to talk to. Since people act like I must be speaking backwards.