To Be Useless For A Day....

You know what I'd like? One of those nights that turn into morning where you've really put way more time lost in pleasure then you spent sleeping. When you roll over and see the time on the clock and realize that you will physically be too sleepy to get anything important done. but when you reflect on the time spent it was all worth it.

Rambling at 1am..........I Think Too Much

That's something I do and I fully accept it as pat of how I operate....The world feeds you so much info so rapidly I can help but think on whats happening outside of my knowledge....The combination of communicative tools, human ego, the need for attention and just plane old common sense swirls around in my head to create. Whats being said about you that you never hear?.....If I can hear the things that are said to me in confidence about others then I've never been naive enough to talk such chatter hasn't happened about me as well. Logic and Averages.....A recent convo raised a good point that the issue of hypocrisy is so relative because we ALL are hypocrites at one point or another........It may not be known to others but it happens. It may not be your prevailing trait but put the right set of circumstances together and you'll break you're rules in a million pieces.....I work well w/ people in general but I love when a business opportunity can succeed w/ women. If you haven't realized it many of them are leading the pack on the entrepreneurial side of things....BUT, notice I said "WHEN".....many a potential great dealing has been derailed simply because for all the independent, modern woman chat that makes for great quotes. I case of "new found love" (or just good dick) has distracted potential partners to the point of having to leave the projects alone. It's a gamble to be honest....Powerful is the woman that doesn't swing her life in a complete 180 degree turn cuz "Mr Right Now" has showed up. I say that cuz if the guy IS really all that he won't allow himself to become a distraction......buuuuuut that's just me and I'm learning my way of thinking doesn't correlate with folk much......Hoping for a great time in Toronto but as always I'm keeping myself prepared for any and everything......Nothings for certain. I know enough about the variables in play to plan accordingly......I don't ever wish ill and unhappiness on others but I take serious exception to those that seek my aid, support, comfort etc....then disappear once things improve.....its not a grudge I hold but it memory that will but fade......years of friendship isn't an invincible shield against foolishness....we have to grow up....Yes we all have our vices but I certain maturity level has to be their.......hopefully....Is omission of the complete truth a lie? Not telling what a person doesn't need to know?......Not sure.....It's in my nature to make people bigger and better then what they may actually be. Especially in a world where many 1st impressions are digital. Your slick words may be quotes taken from else where....your picture required 15 takes to get the right lighting and angle to show what you like but hide what you're insecure about....build on the positive and hope the negative never surfaces.....I've had folk till me plenty times I'm "nicer" or "not as mean" in person. I think honestly I'm just more str8 forward and stoic online. I don't try to express great emotion generally speaking on the Internets.....at least not off the Blvd. I've always let it be known that those curious of me will inquire and if the result is that I'm nicer in person then hey that's better then the opposite reaction....

Rambling After the Month of Me

I'm always appreciative of the love I get for my Birth day/month but this year was one of the best. Very thank you for that.......those that forgot were few and far between so all is good.....How much more efficient would I be if I really stopped caring about those that don't really care about me?.......but in that case would I still be me?.......The online declarations are very nice now once they match the person I know in actual life we'll be making progress......I think because folk that reveal things to me know I hold secrets tightly even when they flip on me I wont air out their dirty laundry......I takes too much energy to really engage folk for the sake of "payback".....the flip side of that is that when I do pursue it it very very VERY ugly....So basically your girl was given it from him while getting it from you!?! Really?......Really?..........Really? Daaammmnnnnn homie.....balance the fond memories of the past with appreciation of the present......."How come we never hooked up"....ummmm cuz you weren't interested back then......now I look better you've gotten less attractive and I'm not interested.....hey it happens like that sometimes....Anyway, my late night eating habits are insane....Im not just taking snacks but have a full legit meal at 1am has happened quite often.....I need to beat my abs into submission......The inability to answer messaging in a timely fashion will continue to urk me.....until eternity.lol.......I find it amusing when I get under a persons skin for calling out there b.s.....not in the general sense but seeing folk hunger for attention and hitting them with the "I see what you're doing" type comment....then we wanna ignore me.......lol I see the gimmicks, the wack lyrics....lol the shits depressing, pathetic, please forget it.......ooh you got a "stalker" huh? Gotta change ya number you say? How about you take the damn location tracker off ya Tweets and stop "checking in" via facebook and 4square as well, Just a suggestion.....So we can worry about the going on of random ass sports player baby mamas and jumpoffs but no one "cares" about Diggy sticking up for his sister? Ooooooh ok just checking......Duration of friendship is not a get out of jail free card for any type of reckless conduct......I can still love ya yet fall back from you.....if its the best thing for me.....speaking of the best for me.....I think this yr is about to open a couple new chapters for me.....Hmmm just watched the end of Fast & Furious 2 Tokyo Drift....Is Tokyo really that animated? I mean it looks like living in a damn real life Anime. I'm curious to see that in person......Land of the Rising Sun meet Nightfall...that'd be fun.........be careful of long cleavage....gravity is playing a cruel trick on y'all. lol Random as hell but true regardless. lol I remember having to be creative to view porn these kids got it too easy now.........you ever have someone make you feel bad for being down for them or interested in what their about. It's like shit respect my appreciation of your hard work that shit ain't to be taken for granted......it's part of my nature to adapt to things around me to cause the least amount of friction. A another method I need to get more familiar with is just doing WHATEVER I want and then letting others adjust to me. If folk are that interested in being down then they'll make changes to their M.O like I do......Had a chat with a friend and we agreed that with encountering folk online in many cases the "Idea" of a person may e much greater then what they really are.......You're very much see the character/Alter Ego of a person vs the actual them. The degree of difference between the two varies but the online "superstar" is really just a regular person that takes good pix for is fairly good with words......just gotta live with it sometimes.....things we had but didn't want at the time....times we wanted that could never do ours......things we wanted that in hindsight you're glad you didn't get......Make em feel you.........it always appeals........Friday? Very uncomfy but for the Tribe, for the Boss.....I'll deal with it......You want to know whats awkward to me people with talent that dont how to properly apply it. What I mean is I see this guy w/ tons of graphic and artistic talent but uses it just to get pix of "models" sure why get $$$ when you can get jerk off material right?......lame.......but hey I worked under a guy when I promoted clubs that was the same way, but he was money hungry too bad combo......and kinda of pedophile-like.....yeah not good.....but that was another time, long removed from that world........

Odd Space

I feel like I'm in a zone where everything I do has the potential to bother or upset someone. Not cuz I'm doing anything wrong but cuz I'm not doing what someone else wants......

Lights On Lights Off

Had to be the strong shoulder to lean on, the ear open to hear a friends distress. When the story was more or less told to me I was asked for my thoughts on what to do next. I gave my thoughts and what I'd do if in that position. I spoke of stepping away from what her initial want vs what her head knows is needed. Made sense to us both but obviously she was apprehensive.  It was then that I realized that due to the various experiences of my past I've become an insane manager of emotion. As serious as folk swear I am you'd be surprised how much I don't really care about.......no let me re phrase that. You'd be surprised how many things I don't put much thought or emotion into during the source of a day. It's allowed me to deal with negativity in a manner most manageable for me. It also has resulted in an often time overlooked laid back style that lets me handle situations pretty easily. If something in the grand scheme of life doesn't matter then I dont think that much about what it means to the big picture. Once in my mind its placed in the disposable section I give it little after thought. It crazy how life develops. Anyone that really knows me knows I've always been sensitive. Odd that I'd now possess this ability to shut my feelings off & on as need be.

A good technique for giving rational advice or making sound business decisions. But is there a down side to it?

Just Because.....

Resolution Review

As the year is approaching its end I've started lining up goals for the new year. In doing that I have to look back as well. What did I want to do that I actually accomplsihed? What targets were missed? Were they realistic ambitions? Live and learn........always about progress.

Rambling in Recovery....

You ever wonder if the time and energies you put into some people are worth it?.....Many folk I see making it many more keep on faking it......the digital numbers amassed via your curves do not automatically mean you have a following.......too many "trying to be comedians" for my taste........MTV2's Guy Code is soooo overdue.....Alesha Renee is still fine!....As far as networks, making moves and evolving Evita's "the most important person in the room"....For many, lace should NOT be worn beyond the bedroom. Only a few know how to rock that for the public eye....guilty pleasures abound...people, places, things....It's funny to remember how females used to scare me socially....my business mindset right now is very focused and in turn has me very snippy in my meetings...technology irks a lot of people when it comes to communication. Women like voices, I.e calls... Men like direct talk and comfort I.e texting....you have to be to understand and accept that. Only a few folk in your life should have the ability to demand which u do....NBA's back, sports media is still predictable, fans vs fanatic ratio still tilted in the wrong direction......your not single, more like testing samples while not really wanting to make a final decision......a situation is bad only if you are unaware of your position in it or make no move to improve it.....communication via BBM status messages.....many times odd to me....and WTF everyones leaves BB.....well it has been a BAD year for the Blackberry nation...Really trying to cut through the talkers and find more doers. Americans are natural talkers...Big City Americans are bigger talkers....and honestly we New Yorkers can write humongous checks that have no shot at being cashed.......there is an ulterior motive to soooo many of the pix I see posted on these Internets......nothing is "entitled" to anyone.....regardless of location or level of intoxication you can flawlessly pull off the exposed titty meat/cleavage and higher cell phone pic and simultaneously post it to all your sites but you can rarely reply to comments on said pix.....yeah you'll be looking attention whorish....but no one listens to me. lol.....You ever see stats or tweets that you kno were typed SPECIFICALLY to name drop someone "important", like you at have to says all that just to let folk know you know this person......Does "act your age" even hold weight as a saying anymore? Everyone is subtracting like 10yrs from their age anyway. 30's the new 20 right? O_O.....I wish a chick would attempt to tell me what kind of drink I should be having....I care less what color it is and if I've paid for your drink shut it up on that one......its a test in patience when that blackberry loading hourglass starts spinning...not sure if it'll be boxing or kick boxing but I'll be getting into 1 of them in 2012....I wanna break any pc I'm on when I see my home gurl recycling old ass pix like their new.......Kung Fu Panda can do no wrong...outside of my immediate fam it'll be a lot of cards this Xmas. Horrible timing when this last assignment ended.....I forgive but never forget. That's how I make not to repeat mistakes....Life really does balance itself out....Crazy what can happen in a week....for all the weight I press and all the hours I'm in the gym, damn that eye shot brought things down to earth REAL fast...But now I'm mad and will get that much better when I return to the gym tomorrow....This Kris Humphrey guy is like a Eddie Munster with the IQ and personality of an 11 yr old...and quite frankly an 11 yr old has more personality...Folk strive more for Attention then for Accomplishment....2012 I'll finally welcome ya'll to my world....

The Sweet Embrace of Instability

I'm a man. I seek the able to be stable for a number of primal reasons. But I think I've taken on a bit of Ms Evita Robinson energy. What I mean is there is no one I know that stares down sudden change and volatility like her. Now I the season slides from summer to fall I'm in a familiar spot of upcoming change. This was a summer of great things that went down, but many things should have happened that didn't. I saw my skills at their best and simultaneously I saw them overlooked and under appreciated.

I'm breathing in deep.....just ready for change......on all levels....... 

Rambling on the Clock

Yes, I'm the one they call when the sky bout to fall...Again I have to watch love and it’s after effects make fools of my people. Good men hurt for only asking their partners to be their equals…….time invested in a relationship is NOT an automatic right to demand a change of the status quo…In college I thought I was just a bad situation, a decade later it’s confirm that many don’t know how to select a good guy. You can sit and describe one very easily. List all the thing he “should” be and do but then when Ray Ray some one worked his way into Mr Beat-It-Up status what can you say?.....Ummm what is the purpose of our government and congress again? I’m not even being funny in express confusing about what they really do for us?.....DAMN homie! In High School you were the man Homie! What happened to you? I really started to sit down and analyze how and why I help folk. Many people think I want something so that’s why I do it, but truth be told a)Its just a part of my nature cuz many times I’ll be like “I aint need to help her ass” b) When someone presents a problem or just throws it out into the air my mind takes it and solves it so fast that to me its nothing to say hey if your really want that handled do x.y.z or here’s a link to something that may help you or whatever. Helping isn’t so grand an action to me. More so it’s what we need to make much more common…..Lotta things just sound good to the hear, look good to the eye but their reality is so far from that….I’m still a sucker for some. Not in a bad way but still it is what it is. Wet & Sloppy vs Slow, Smooth and Controlled? Truth they both work…..The ability to stretch a dollar is a critical life skill….Lol, I think one of my friends indirectly referenced me in a #OOMF tweet. 1) If she did it was cute and next tell let me in on the compliment 2) I still have issues referring to folk as followers….Communication freak I am….I cant change it…It would appear to me that you can put the word “flow” after anything to make it sound more exciting. Vacation Flow, Casino Flow, Sweaty sex Flow? I guess those work……Work Flow? Public Transportation Flow? Cramp Flow? And yes I’ve seen all 3 of these posted…...Hoodrats......Hoodrats, can be useful at times……Ya know as good as Harry Potter was/is I just couldn’t get with those tiny little twigs they called wands. I prefer the oversized magical staffs my self….Clearly the water of the United Kingdom flow directly from Gods person bath tub. Nothing else examples the measurements I’ve seen…..This NBA season, assuming they get their labor issues together, I’m taking my Knicks support on the road. Philly, Boston, DC, Miami(hopefully), Chicago…….I’m watching people step out for lunch into the heat and coming back looking a mess……As judgmental as some may think I am I honestly keep quiet and the most major things. Not issues and social problems but if I see someone close to me doing something really stupid, repeating an action they KNOW better then to be doing I’ll just watch. I’ll hope they stop and get things in proper condition but most likely I won’t speak on it…..does everything need to be shared? No it doesn’t shut up about some things like seriously, privacy please just a hint of it maybe? With the ability to communicate must come the ability to take what you give. When you couldn’t realistically reach your favorite t.v personality, music or sports star it was ok the curse a guy for a bad or insult an artist you didn’t help. Chances were they’d never hear what you said anyway. Now that you can @ a celeb to directly tell them to sucC a di*k you have to be prepared to get a lil something back….How many of your childhood cartoon theme songs do you still know and can still sing? Me….I still know G.I Joes, Transformers, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Animanics, Tiny Toons, Chip n’ Dale Rescue Rangers, Duck Tales, Thunder Cats just to name a few and if there was no actual theme to sing I can still hum the hell out of these songs, screw what these kids are watching today lol, Heard that Henny can actually adversely effect sexual performance…..damn. I’m going to get my current Ink touched issue and with more/greater detail to them. I 100% grew my 1st 2 Tats so as simple as they are they mean that much more to me…..Can only get by on words but for so long. Eventually I realize that’s all I’ll get and I come to enjoy that for the simple lip service it is.....everyone talking about "thirst" until the advances come from a person you like. Appreciate the attention cuz I aint forever.....

The Other Side......

As much as the dark, stoic, guardian finds a connection w/ the Dark Knight, there is another side. The Ying to the Yang. This side is the thinker, peace maker, youth supporting quiet until provoked dreamer. This side of me is very much Norrin Radd, the Silver Surfer. He gave up his freedom for his people and while he is one of the most powerful beings in existence, he spends much of his time simply observing. And wondering why we do the things we do.

I Get so Deep into My Mind

Even though my weed days are loooong gone, I remember being younger out for no reason looking up at the night sky and staring, thinking imagining how it would be to navigate the space ways. To travel distances so grand that everything you know that makes up life is no bigger then the head of a pin. Would you feel peace or the deepest level of loneliness?

Communication is the Key….That I Think Many of Us Are Repeatedly Losing

Generational progression has it’s moments in my opinion where the trends, social shifts and overall advancements result in changes that require the people to stop and examine what direction they are travelling in before it s too late to turn around. I have spoken to many of my people about the perfect transitional period I think we grew up in. We’re old enough to know a world without smart phones, Internets, FB, Hip Hop, hell for some of us we know what it was to have no cable. And yet we’re young enough to be fully adapted to the technological boom of the pass 15-20 yrs. Simple functions that my parents still need help adjusting too I can do in my sleep. So easy has it become for us that we’re losing sight of what being human is really about. 

You’re getting caught in being characters and comic versions of ourselves. Now from this point on there will those that label me as being too serious. It’s all fun and jokes, blah, blah,blah…….Well I give that was never my sense of humor. We may not all be aware of it but the impersonal aspect of technology is feeding into everyone’s desire to feel invincible. You may think it’s not in you but it is. It may vary person to person but it’s there. In a world where you are at the mercy of so many things, here is an aspect of life you can control with a reckless abandon that the offline world bothers permit.   

Think about it. I may be as digitally social as anyone, some of my best friends and yes Loves came via the Internet but I haven’t forgotten my basic face to face school yard born principles. I remember in school that you could do many things to get under a person’s skin but some of the worst fights I’m known and seen came from telling another person to “Suck my Di**”. It was just understood that those words = Physical reactions. Ok cool, we fast forward and everyone has that as reply for something not cuz they intend on brawling but because they know there safe before there laptop, office desk or smart phone. 

Lemme keep going with this. Here’s the scene. A person you don’t know at your job or in your class has on funny style clothing, shoes or as seems to get so much attention, a bad wig. You sneakily take a Polaroid picture and go on to copy and pass the image along to coworkers, strangers, making jokes the entire way. Does that seem very realistic to you? No because that act would eventually reach this person and come back to you. You’d be forced to explain your self face to face with this stranger that you’ve been insulting. Don’t get me, some things are funny and I can appreciate a little joke but everything in moderation.
I think in the end it’s that no ne thinks anymore. You have such fast technological options that you’ve cell phone twit pic’d and blasted an image of an innocent person to thousand becoming millions before you stopped to think if you should. If don’t you think about cuz the Internets for the most part will keep you anonymous. It’s kind of cowardly if you think about it. I have many people that I’m cool with and generally like with “interesting” personalities but if one of them hit me up saying they got checked physically or otherwise for some cyber antics then I wouldn’t have any sympathy.How much of what we do would we do if the intended target of our words and actions would find out and see us about it?
 
You see I love the many options technology has opened up for us. When my friend is bouncing across the globe and I’m missing her any can still communicate. I can build business with people I’ve yet to meet. I can research who it is that may be worth getting to know and building with. And should their offline match or be better then their online self then hey the network grows. I honestly do more watching and observing email that public communicating. I treasure my text, email, and bbm convo’s much more then FB or Twitter cuz I’ve learned that’s when I deal with the real. All foul mouthed, disrespectful side show ends when we speak 1 on 1 and I’m addressing you as an adult. And 9 out of 10 times the response is lovely. I’ve had to ask some people why do you present ya self in that manner? Lovely people, intelligent men behind Digital costumes…some say it’s to vent, others say it’s just another side of them, some admit it’s just for fun and show.

All I ask is that you don’t get lost in it. Don’t be the “Asshole” cuz it’s the cool thing to be right now. In all honesty no one is saluting you. If you have 101 ways to say how “You don’t give a fu**” or “How many Fu**s you don’t give” them you just might care more then you want us to think.
Time is short and not promised to any of us. I just wish we more of it building each other up and instead of picking at and tearing each other down.
This more so about me getting some stuff off my chest then anything. As for if things can or will change? A man can hope right?

Flava of the Month or Where did my People Go?

Blogging has always been 1st and foremost a way for me to express myself and ease my own mental tensions. Been doing it for nearly a decade. Right before the FB & Twitter explosion, blogs caught on. Everyone had one. Many people bounce around in relation to the new trends and it was blogging turn. I was leaving Myspace and its outdated blog system and came across blogspot. Through Blogspot my blogs took a shape and form. A legit corner of the Internets for me to be me. The BLVD. And low and behold others seemed to like it. There were moments that I can honestly say were fun reading comments in bunches. But, as all things do the novelty were off for most I suppose and the FB status updates and quick hitting tweets took most to new areas. And even as I now attempt to navigate these other social media for improved business. I always come back to the BLVD. It's a lot quieter these days even as the look of it has improved.

I don't know why I felt the need to reflect on things cuz I'm not stopping anytime soon. Maybe if I turned up the sex stories that would get folk interested again? Oh well. The BLVD is still on extension of LonelyNites. Thus as long as I' have me it'll have be what it's supposed to be....

Nothing New Under the Sun....

The more time passes the more I hear the same things repeated over and over....god bless the soul that presents something new or at least a new spin on that which is already in existence....

NYers Coming Soon to a Subway near You

In the wake of the several teen suicides, a local group has launched a campaign against homophobia.
The Gay Mens Health Crisis organization on Monday unveiled a series of posters as part of the "I Love My Boo" campaign, designed to promote acceptance of gay men of color.

Organizers say the posters are designed to highlight the trust and intimacy between minority homosexual couples.The group says challenging stereotypes empowers gay and lesbians to have more confidence and take control over their health.

The posters will appear in 1,000 subway cars and 150 subway stations throughout October.

Any thoughts????

Mini Ramble at 1am.....

What Love without Action?........What Action without Feeling? Can you really maintain one without the other? If so for how long? Believe it or not their are times when I'd take a hug and kiss over raunchy, sweaty, sticky grind time...There's really nothing wrong with getting older.....This economy suxx ginormous balls but it may pave the way to really getting the Nexus in it's proper direction.....I miss Miami.......I wont let this break me......tumblr has me in image over load and I think played  a huge role in Hump Day going on vacation.....I'm already seeing fitness progress.....the digital eye can be very deceiving.....don't wanna see another person quote the 48 laws of power yet cant keep the power to their own cell phone on....I truly feel more appreciated when I get quiet and stay to myself......the things I've experienced in life especially on the social side have caused me to develop a real mind frame of not apologizing for anything I do as long as it's not disrespectful.......

Rambling Via V-Loggington

September Rambling Session from Nightfall 914 on Vimeo.

Part 2 after the Jump

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Just a Random Thought for the Morning: Chelsea Handler

Does anyone really find her to be THAT funny? I don't know, her act just seems very "blah" to me...

Here she is with Mel B (YUM) as her guest.

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What's in me can be in you.....

...sometimes "life" teases me to no end and I just have to be patient. But eventually the moment arrives when "life" drops a perfect situation on me. No tease, no messing around just pure joy and fulfillment.

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