The Code.....

For all the times I felt that people took advantage of me, overlooked me, took my presence for granted I've found I way to collect that emotion and those lessons for a real progressive purpose......

Happy Birthday Bright Eyes!!

To one of the most important people to me in the world to me I wish you I very happy Birthday!!!!

Say you soon!!

Setting Order & Balance

I've met more folk in the past 2 years that have proven themselves to be positive additions to life then ever before. At the same time I've had to reevaluate others and where they stand. This is not about a loss of love or respect but rather a true look at how things are today. The energy may be different, the communication may have changed. It's not a bad thing just a real thing and not acting like things that were in 2003 are the same in 2013. Being honest with myself and those I affiliate with is never a bad thing.

Being A Guardian Has Many Levels........

Like watching over someone when they rest rather then destroying the person that hurts them......

It Happens In An Instant

In the blink of an eye things change. A trigger is hit. A switch is flipped and your perspective changes.......

Let's Do This.......

Comes With The Territory......

People always mention to me "Ooooh we're cool with so many women..." as if it's some kind of weird thing. They think it's some kind of 24/7 wonder land and I never understood why. People are people. A lot of what I do and just how the chips fall out around ladies which fine. But what folk don't think about is the other stuff that comes with those interactions.

Humans are social creatures and as such we genuinely tend to pair up. That results in me not being able to interact too much with a person without assumptions being made to the depth of my relationships. I used to think this was a youth driven thing but it's actually gotten worse with age. To be honest I think social media has helped feed into many of your more juvenile characteristics. So yeah, watchers be they friend, foe or complete stranger continues to make up their own story line for me and what I must be doing with folk.

Only those that really know me or heaven forbid stop to actually ask me know that my social reality is no where near the fantasy that people envision.  And on occasion I get put into some pretty lame positions because on others assumptions and twisted imaginations. Usually for the sake of keeping the peace I just let it ride. It's often not worth the energy.

"Oh, that's what you think? You don't KNOW but you going to do what your doing based off an assumption? Ok, knock yourself out. I'll just be over here doing what I always do." 

That's usually how it goes down. And be clear, just cuz I know folk that's not some stamp of automatic loyalty. Or at the very least understand that many times there are conditions that can again put me in an interesting space with people. Nothing says "Screw you Jason." then ending up on the outs with someone because their man of the moment has an issue with me. Yeah when those instances arise I'm always the expandable piece of the equation. It used to hurt a lot now it's just part of the game. Oh well, those are the breaks...........

Development through Disappointment

So, it's a funny time for me. This summer has brought so much into my life that I've been working towards yet a lot of it was still unexpected in the way it manifested itself. A new way of life is slowly developing and I'm excited at how this can develop. On the flip side there have been a number of things that have happened that have made me pull back into myself and play life much closer to the chest then usual. I don't ask much and try not to bother folk. I move purposefully and with a pretty pure heart. I've had waaaaay too many folk misinterpret my moves or just blatantly react wrong to what I do or say. Now technically I really shouldn't internalize what how others react to me if I know what I'm doing was coming from a good place but the reality of life is that we are social beings we interact with and react to the what people do towards us. Being made to feel a certain kind of way that falls opposite to your intentions hurts. Just imagine holding the door open for someone and as they pass through the doorway they turn around and scream at you for doing it. Yes it's really a problem with them but it still causes a feeling. I'm 32 yet I often get pulled back to that 16 yr old shy guy that folk clowned for being so caring. Some things are just a part of who I am. Please believe there is no apology coming from me on this. I just have to act in kind to what happens to and around me. I dont want to go off of anyone so I'd rather deal with my feelings solely with me than direct a rage moment at someone else. I have too much going on to be derailed in that manner.

Now, to another matter that has eaten at my other the past few weeks....Travel. Since the beginning of the year I've had my travel plans laid out for the year. That was a large % of Nomadness w/ a few "me" trips sprinkled here and there. The main focal points were the RV Tour which was 4 weeks on the road, Barbados and Japan in last August for 2 weeks of lengthy travel for Animekon and Nomadness; and Bali for New Years. The RV tour was a massive success and next year will be even better.

The summer plans were August though ran into an unexpected detour earlier in the summer. Plans that were laid to put me in excellent position for this summer fell through at the last minute and has had me in recovery mode. Picture yourself locking in a great business deal on Thursday, leaving for a weekend away that Friday and getting a call in your hotel that the deal you sealed 24 hrs prior has just been eliminated. That is exactly what happened to me. It set off a chain reaction that in the end cost me the trips I truly WANTED to take. At the time of this writing Animekon is over in Barbados which I didn't attend and what 99% of people don't know till now is that I wont be making it to Japan with my Tribe either. It wouldn't be a responsible move for me to force this and believe me I considered it heavily. In the midst of the scramble to pick up the professional pieces I did essentially stumble into new business that will lead to many good things, but the transition period just didn't leave me enough time to pull off Japan in an efficient manner.

I cant begin to express how much this is tearing at me. Before there was a Tribe people that grew up with me knew how long Japan has been on my personal Radar. This is going to be a hellish week for me internally as I wish my fellow tribe members well while feeling the sting of what I'm missing. I believe everything happens for a reason but I'm still searching for why things played out for me the way they did. It's not my way to complain publicly so that is why I'm venting her on the Blvd since I know only a handful of folk will actually view this vs putting this on Facebook in its entirety. This one hurts.....a lot. It'll be motivation for future moves but in this moment its just a twisting in my stomach that I'll have to work through. Hopefully Bali has a few tricks in store for me at ease my feelings over missing my 1st travel to Asia.

Gotta play the cards your dealt....good, bad & ugly.....

This Has Been A Interesting Week......

When the family is gone and the crib is empty all week it always reveals a lot to me. Must be all the silence.

I'm Still The Best At What I Do........

Simply Acknowledge It 

Just On Faith

I dont know what is going on right now.

I dont know why certain things are happening the way they are.

I dont know why so many people are behaving how they are.

I dont know what is causing this shift in energy.

I dont know exactly what I should be doing right now.

All I can do is trust that what I feel and what I'm holding myself to is right.

Compassion w/ Comfort.....

"...the best way to cuddle with me. Ass-naked with your head on my chest and a leg thrown across my torso."

Happy 4000 Posts To Me!!!!!!

I just realized I hit my 4000th blog post!!! Man time really flies. Never thought things would run so long but I'm glad they have. The Blvd will continue to stay active as all these new ventures & opportunities open up. 

Here's to the next 1000 posts.

Surprised By Nothing..........

I've seen it all coming or knew it was happening long ago......Life is clearly preparing for whats next.

What's In Store Now?????

I can honestly say last week was one of the craziest, mixed bags of emotion I've ever dealt with. Nothing was simple.Everything had layers and multiple applications stress. Personal issues, business issues, BIG business issues. There were highs, lows and a ton WTF was that moments that I'm sure will pop up again.
I never in one short time span witnessed so much BITCHASSNESS in my life. The way of the cyber world, the measure of a man, the manner in which folk conduct themselves, at least online is very sickening at times. he "madness" in Nomadness was in full effect last week, but with that said, the balance was reset again and tipped in our favor with the info that was shared with me before my short Florida get away.

I have reason to be upset....perhaps even angry because there's a lot going on on a lot of levels that I dont like. Instead, I'll stop breathe and hold on to the mind frame that has served me well all year. Everything is putting itself in position for major change and success. No negativity will change that course.....

School Days......

This really is like high school revisited at times. You know who the folk are that will give the extra detailed, more info then needed semi confrontation answers, you know the ones that everyone likes but talk smack about behind there backs, you know who the jokers and A-Holes are. You have the folk that miss the "big picture" but you know they'll be at every party and they'll make sure you know they were there.

Basically so much of the personality navigation that's happening today I've been preparing for since childhood.......

Evolution In Progress.......

It's interesting what I'm turning into. Is it merely growing up and maturing? Perhaps, or maybe it's a lil more then just that......what ever it may be I will not fight it. And hopefully no one else attempts to either.

No Time To Waste........

Image Via Fearless Leon

In Constant Need.........

Another RV Tour Our Moment......

As this point the college stops are done and its final weekend. The sense of accomplishment is slowly sinking in as I look over the Las Vegas strip. I'm a low key humble guy by nature yet this night was a type of celebration I'd never had before. Have I popped bottles before? Yes but that was usually for no real reason or its a birthday which is great but thats a common thing now. We were celebrating something that was a first for the Tribe. It was a first for us. A serious bench mark. A testament to the power of perseverance. There will never be another 1st Nomadness RV Tour.

 I wasn't overwhelmed but I definitely felt that pride in myself, Evita and this Tribe. I need to feel that again.....

Ties That Bind

I'm the Connector, the Link, the Bond......I stop and realize just how many separate businesses, groups, movements and individuals that now rock together HARD due to may presence. Never something I ask to be acknowledged about but when I sat back and tried counting the degrees of separation between folk that led back to me it was very interesting. I guess it's part of what I do.....