Development through Disappointment

So, it's a funny time for me. This summer has brought so much into my life that I've been working towards yet a lot of it was still unexpected in the way it manifested itself. A new way of life is slowly developing and I'm excited at how this can develop. On the flip side there have been a number of things that have happened that have made me pull back into myself and play life much closer to the chest then usual. I don't ask much and try not to bother folk. I move purposefully and with a pretty pure heart. I've had waaaaay too many folk misinterpret my moves or just blatantly react wrong to what I do or say. Now technically I really shouldn't internalize what how others react to me if I know what I'm doing was coming from a good place but the reality of life is that we are social beings we interact with and react to the what people do towards us. Being made to feel a certain kind of way that falls opposite to your intentions hurts. Just imagine holding the door open for someone and as they pass through the doorway they turn around and scream at you for doing it. Yes it's really a problem with them but it still causes a feeling. I'm 32 yet I often get pulled back to that 16 yr old shy guy that folk clowned for being so caring. Some things are just a part of who I am. Please believe there is no apology coming from me on this. I just have to act in kind to what happens to and around me. I dont want to go off of anyone so I'd rather deal with my feelings solely with me than direct a rage moment at someone else. I have too much going on to be derailed in that manner.

Now, to another matter that has eaten at my other the past few weeks....Travel. Since the beginning of the year I've had my travel plans laid out for the year. That was a large % of Nomadness w/ a few "me" trips sprinkled here and there. The main focal points were the RV Tour which was 4 weeks on the road, Barbados and Japan in last August for 2 weeks of lengthy travel for Animekon and Nomadness; and Bali for New Years. The RV tour was a massive success and next year will be even better.

The summer plans were August though ran into an unexpected detour earlier in the summer. Plans that were laid to put me in excellent position for this summer fell through at the last minute and has had me in recovery mode. Picture yourself locking in a great business deal on Thursday, leaving for a weekend away that Friday and getting a call in your hotel that the deal you sealed 24 hrs prior has just been eliminated. That is exactly what happened to me. It set off a chain reaction that in the end cost me the trips I truly WANTED to take. At the time of this writing Animekon is over in Barbados which I didn't attend and what 99% of people don't know till now is that I wont be making it to Japan with my Tribe either. It wouldn't be a responsible move for me to force this and believe me I considered it heavily. In the midst of the scramble to pick up the professional pieces I did essentially stumble into new business that will lead to many good things, but the transition period just didn't leave me enough time to pull off Japan in an efficient manner.

I cant begin to express how much this is tearing at me. Before there was a Tribe people that grew up with me knew how long Japan has been on my personal Radar. This is going to be a hellish week for me internally as I wish my fellow tribe members well while feeling the sting of what I'm missing. I believe everything happens for a reason but I'm still searching for why things played out for me the way they did. It's not my way to complain publicly so that is why I'm venting her on the Blvd since I know only a handful of folk will actually view this vs putting this on Facebook in its entirety. This one hurts.....a lot. It'll be motivation for future moves but in this moment its just a twisting in my stomach that I'll have to work through. Hopefully Bali has a few tricks in store for me at ease my feelings over missing my 1st travel to Asia.

Gotta play the cards your dealt....good, bad & ugly.....

Oh So It's All About Money????

Why do folk always say "If so and so isn't paying my bills or if they aren't getting me a check they don't matter...."

Why do we always elect to sound so cold and business like as if we dont live based on feelings just as much as material gains. You gonna really act like people without ANY financial ties to you haven't impacted your life in some manner?

That stuff sounds good for the Internets but we know better.....

Careful Who You Screw Over.....

Wayne Vs. Stark Bigger Bank???

According to Forbes Tony Stark (http://onforb.es/IstNJQ ) is worth more than Wayne (http://onforb.es/JvOPd1 ). 

...Damn

What Would It Cost If The Avenger Really Did Battle it Out In NYC???

According to an analysis performed by the Connecticut Analysis Corporation, a firm that assesses damages for insurance companies, the various battles fought by The Avengers in New York City resulted in as much as $70 billion worth of physical damage.The economic impact and costs associated with cleaning up the mess would add another $90 billion in expenses, bringing the total cost of the melee for insurance companies, businesses and the City of New York to $160 billion. Bloomberg’s report on the study follows below.

Been Getting That "No Info Available" Message From the IRS Refund Site?

Apparently there are issues with the Nations "big brother" site as they recently issued the following message....

Update: We are aware that some taxpayers who have filed electronically and received an acknowledgement from the IRS are concerned when they visit "Where's My Refund" and are told that we have no information regarding their return. This is a temporary situation, and we expect to resolve the matter in a few days. At that time, taxpayers will be able to get an expected refund date when they visit "Where's My Refund."
If a taxpayer received an acknowledgment message that their e-filed tax return has been received, they can be assured that the IRS has the tax return even though "Where's My Refund" does not reflect that. Taxpayers should not call the IRS unless specifically directed by "Where's My Refund," as there is no new information to give them.

We expect the vast majority of tax refunds to continue to be issued within the historical range of 10 to 21 days. The IRS is taking steps to update information so that Where's My Refund has current information. The IRS apologizes for any inconvenience and will provide updated information as soon as possible.

The Dark Knight Gets It........

Photography Challenge Day 8

And on the 8th Day it is request that I drop an image of something I dislike.

The above pic is my monthly bill repaying my college loans......plenty fun!!!!

"I know Big Meech, the REAL Big Meech"

With Rick Ross burning things up with his Blowing Money Fast joint with Styles P, Jeezy decides to remind people how the letters B.M.F became famous in the first place.
DJ Folk drops an Exclusive Street Banger!!!


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A fool and his money....

I wont front. I think about money a lot. Not so much in having it but all the things I could do and people I could help with it, but even in day dreaming I try to keep my ideas practical. I 100% agree with the following:

Money buys you three things: it buys fun, it buys security, and it buys time. The only problem is that if you neglect one of these three things at the expense of the others, you lose them all.

You've got to have balance. I came across this old story of a lottery winner who's fortunes didn't get much better with his winnings.

William "Bud" Post III, 66, whose $16.2 million in lottery winnings brought him debt, despair and heartache, causing the kind of trouble often recounted in country-western songs, died of respiratory failure Jan. 15 at a Pittsburgh area hospital.

"Everybody dreams of winning money, but nobody realizes the nightmares that come out of the woodwork, or the problems," he said in 1993, five years after winning the Pennsylvania lottery.

Full Article Here

Tuff Break......so how would you have spent that money?