The Communication Today....

I remember when Good Morning and Good Night were automatic with us. Everyday without fail, good or bad we said that. That reach out to make sure the other was ok. That no longer happens. I guess it's the natural progression of life but I miss it and it hurts.

I Understand.....

Many people think that silence represents a lack of caring or concern. They think you are apathetic to what's going on around you and with other people. No, at least for me it's the opposite. Silence is a sign of understanding. It's understanding that life is about change. Even when it's change you didn't ask for or even like. I see why the change is happening and can move on with life understanding whats going on. Rules are changing.....hell, rules are disappearing in some cases. We do what we must and as time progresses we take the feelings of fewer and fewer people into consideration during our decisions. It's life. Priorities change.

Handling What Is Thrown At You.

I'm being given more and more reason to stay silent.....folk create their own issues and think I'm the one acting brand new.

12 Years.......

....is it possible that after 12 yrs things been get better or have they run their course. Well I guess if thought that thing couldnt get better that would severely limit my beliefs on marriage. After 12 yrs I don't know whats possible. They say there is also hope where there is love. So I guess the question is.......is there love?

Setting Order & Balance

I've met more folk in the past 2 years that have proven themselves to be positive additions to life then ever before. At the same time I've had to reevaluate others and where they stand. This is not about a loss of love or respect but rather a true look at how things are today. The energy may be different, the communication may have changed. It's not a bad thing just a real thing and not acting like things that were in 2003 are the same in 2013. Being honest with myself and those I affiliate with is never a bad thing.

New Trend On Deck.....

...It's the "I'ma show who I'm without showing who I with" post.....

If that level of grey area is needed then just keep it to words.

Seen about 8 such posts now....

I Know The Feeling........

Being A Guardian Has Many Levels........

Like watching over someone when they rest rather then destroying the person that hurts them......

It Happens In An Instant

In the blink of an eye things change. A trigger is hit. A switch is flipped and your perspective changes.......

Let's Do This.......

Comes With The Territory......

People always mention to me "Ooooh we're cool with so many women..." as if it's some kind of weird thing. They think it's some kind of 24/7 wonder land and I never understood why. People are people. A lot of what I do and just how the chips fall out around ladies which fine. But what folk don't think about is the other stuff that comes with those interactions.

Humans are social creatures and as such we genuinely tend to pair up. That results in me not being able to interact too much with a person without assumptions being made to the depth of my relationships. I used to think this was a youth driven thing but it's actually gotten worse with age. To be honest I think social media has helped feed into many of your more juvenile characteristics. So yeah, watchers be they friend, foe or complete stranger continues to make up their own story line for me and what I must be doing with folk.

Only those that really know me or heaven forbid stop to actually ask me know that my social reality is no where near the fantasy that people envision.  And on occasion I get put into some pretty lame positions because on others assumptions and twisted imaginations. Usually for the sake of keeping the peace I just let it ride. It's often not worth the energy.

"Oh, that's what you think? You don't KNOW but you going to do what your doing based off an assumption? Ok, knock yourself out. I'll just be over here doing what I always do." 

That's usually how it goes down. And be clear, just cuz I know folk that's not some stamp of automatic loyalty. Or at the very least understand that many times there are conditions that can again put me in an interesting space with people. Nothing says "Screw you Jason." then ending up on the outs with someone because their man of the moment has an issue with me. Yeah when those instances arise I'm always the expandable piece of the equation. It used to hurt a lot now it's just part of the game. Oh well, those are the breaks...........

Life is Change

Some changes just take longer to happen and regardless of how you elect to acknowledge it, it's happened.

Connections....

Does This Apply To You

Keeping it light this Hump Day but here's a thought.....

DO YOU EVER GET A REALLY GOOD HUG FROM SOMEONE AND YOU’RE LIKE WAIT NO HUG ME MORE

So You Say......

Everyone tries the act like they don't. Front if you want but I need to deal with real humans so my trust goes to those that can openly admit to caring.....

Summer Update Vlog....It's Life

Summer Update on the Blvd: How's Life Treating You from Nightfall 914 on Vimeo.

Re Evaluating Myself

How do you feel so low yet feel so high at the same time.....

The depths of current situations plunging me into the abyss.....

The potential of life building steps moving upwards towards greatness....

So much of what I've defined myself by I'm questioning now....

It will either be the greatest validation or the most painful reality check yet.

Shanda Speaks on the Issue of Break Ups

 I don't think there's a person viewing this that cant relate on some level.

Isn't That What It's Supposed To Be??

Nothing gets people talking about the beauty of relationships like Jay & Bey. Pix pop up of the power couple somewhere on the planet enjoying life and everyone will love it. They're so sweet. Love how Jay lights up around her, ect,etc....well I mean yeah they're married isn't that what it's supposed to be. Dont get me  it's great to appreciate love but sometimes I wonder if in the midst of appreciation does this speak to what many are missing? How many folk not only see a JayZ & Beyonce as a beautiful thing but also as the primary example of what a relationship should be? Many don't see this in their personal life so the go to substitute are the higher profile members of society. Similarly with the President Obama and the 1st Lady it's great to see but when folk ask me about my definition of love it's my parents way before I think of any other couples......we need to get those home grown role models back.

Real Talk Tuesday

The convo's that are happening today.....serious business and issues going on with a lot of folk. 2013 has been a big year but it gets taxing on the emotional level too.

Reminders Never Hurt