Got my hands in so many thing. So many goals are being targeting. So much happening to and around me. Just gotta focus and and do what I must......what's best for me.
What's worse, being in a relationship and not being able to get more "physical intimacy" or being single and not getting any?
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The unofficial end of Summer is here and truthfully I'm ready for it. I got in shape to be descent in St.Croix (Next Target Spring 2011) and after the HOTTEST summer I can remember, the thought of boots, hoodies, sweaters, and long sleeves feels pretty good. That's still a lil bit away but time flies so in due time. As for this weekend and the week upcoming, if ever a man could a recharge it's me.
So I hope that the next 7-10 days provides just that.
I'm trying to gather, sort and set my thoughts so I can properly progress forward with life. I know the future is better then the present so I"m just making sure I keep calm and focused. It seems simple but in the midst of stress even that can be more difficult. Just another hurdle to jump.....
First off this has nothing to do with the damn fish. Before the name Nemo was synonymous with under water adventures, there was Little Nemo and his adventures in Slumberland. This was a classic animated movie from my childhood that got heavy play on the Disney channel. All of that back story is to say that just as Nemo navigated the realms of Slumberland only to wake up a changed person, I too believe in the ability of our dreams to reach beyond the subconscious of our minds.
I've spoken on dreams before or the visions that I've had since like high school. Well this morning I woke up from an interesting one. It wasn't a vision of something that could realistically happen. It was pure fantasy/Science fiction but it held a powerful message for me. Let me set the scene.....
I don't think its present day because I'm on a large bus. The people on board are people from my high school yrs, so I guess this was an odd field trip of some kind.
Anyway, it seems that their are these 4 rowdy females in orange jumpsuits in the back of the bus not for from where me and "my girl" are sitting. (Ummmm I never had a girl in high school soooo ummm yeah). As the apparent jail chicks get more and more unruly peopl start to make their way to the front of the bus.
At a red light we suddenly we hear screams. These females have opened the rare door and are draggin' people out of the bus. I'm barking at the bus driver asking wassup with these convicts and getting little help from him. Next thing I know these "things" have my girl....and they've turned into more zombie, undead looking beings then humans. Of course at this point I'm like "I wish you would do something to me girl." I grab her back and tell her to back to the bus.
It's now me vs them.All I have are 2 pieces of pipe from the bus but apparently that's all I need to commence the smack down and tore into these creatures. I woke up before I finished them off....
It wasn't immediate, but while in the gym it struck me that perhaps this was a subconscious move to shake me out of the funk I've been in since my recent job assignment ended. A reminder of who I am and what I've done for years.....adapt, survive, overcome and succeed.
I get it now.....back to business.
I'm in a period of serious self evaluation, soul searching and questioning. This year has thrown challenges at me at a rapid pace and while I feel I've been able to avoid being knocked down, I'm mad that I haven't made any progress forward. I'm not here to just get by. I was at a lil bbq yesterday in Y-O and I was chattin' with a childhood friend of my friend who happens to live in the same town as me, about all the old hustle and side jobs I used to have. It was later that night that it struck how much I've abandoned that. Not to mention my frustration that I didn't save more of that money. I was the guy that was down for anything that had a nice payoff. To avoid being used up by greed and run into the ground, I stepped back and become the guy that would be anything for a select few. No money needed.
So now where am I. The employment instability is pressure. Life's unexpected issues is pressure. The social conversational life of a late 20's adult now includes marriage, cohabitation, kids and all those other life impacting topics. It's not a game anymore. I'm recollecting my sense right now. More within my own private spaces then for the masses to see. Either a fall and become a regular guy or a remain the unique force I've been for so long.
Time will tell.
After the jump is a piece that was emailed to me from Evita's significant other. It was something shared with him that adds an interesting perspective to where I and maybe a lot of people are at in life right now. Keep a open mind to the basic ideas.
