To Be Useless For A Day....

You know what I'd like? One of those nights that turn into morning where you've really put way more time lost in pleasure then you spent sleeping. When you roll over and see the time on the clock and realize that you will physically be too sleepy to get anything important done. but when you reflect on the time spent it was all worth it.

I Try Not To Lie To Myself...

Necessity, convenience, blessing, option, sucker, leader.....just various labels/titles I've worn in the eyes of people in my life.

I can respect Cassie.....

...simply cuz she KNOWS she's not here for her music. So hey keep turning out that eye candy.

Bitchie's Spot has more images from the new Vibe shoot.

...life's rough as hell sometimes......

In the midst of the crazy ass weather yesterday I find out one of my closest friends is dealing with a miscarriage of the pregnancy she just recently learned of.2 months in I believe.

I'm sorry for what she must be going through and dealing with physically and emotionally. Yet in the same thought I found myself questioning some of my feelings. Primarily the feelings that this is actually "best" for her. Not best that the pregnancy ended premature but that in knowing this person, the issues on so many levels involved with her. I was worried about how she was gonna make it work the minute she told me about her situation. 2 seperate fathers to your kids, both of whom are poor excuses for men......and your struggling for housing and finances as is? Yeah that had me extremely concerned.

I'm going to do my best to be caring and supportive to the situation. The shits just a mess. I just make sure I learn from the mistakes of others.

Ho Activities, Ho Tendencies, Hoes are ya friends, Hoes are ya enemies.....

We've ALL been that at one point or another. The amount of time may vary person to person but we've all at the very least had a "Ho-like" moment. So with that said. Luda and Lil Kim (and lil Fate)chop it out about the Ho Double Standards on the classicly titled "Hey Ho" off Luda's Battle of the Sexes Album. 3/9/10

Self ChecC

Of course the theme music to this would be Ice Cube's Classic.


I've had a very productive 09' thus far.Lots of good, some not so good and a dash of ugly. But as time marches on I have to take time to self evaluate. To sit down and look at who and what I am. How do I act in various situations. How do I act with various people. Am I complacent with those that I'm in communication or contact with constantly? Do I take others for granted without knowing? I pride myself on being open to criticism cuz it's one of the many ways that we grow. Hell I KNOW that the idea of being taken for granted has been major to me before but I'm not exempt from it either.

Well see.In the last 2 years my annual getaway has always served to clear my head and refocus me on what I need to improve within myself.I don't expect this year to be any different.

But I CAN NOT allow my self to get soft and forget the things history has taught me about various things, people and situations