Bring It On

2014.....let's do this and see who's left standing. 

The Communication Today....

I remember when Good Morning and Good Night were automatic with us. Everyday without fail, good or bad we said that. That reach out to make sure the other was ok. That no longer happens. I guess it's the natural progression of life but I miss it and it hurts.

Happy Birthday Bright Eyes!!

To one of the most important people to me in the world to me I wish you I very happy Birthday!!!!

Say you soon!!

Setting Order & Balance

I've met more folk in the past 2 years that have proven themselves to be positive additions to life then ever before. At the same time I've had to reevaluate others and where they stand. This is not about a loss of love or respect but rather a true look at how things are today. The energy may be different, the communication may have changed. It's not a bad thing just a real thing and not acting like things that were in 2003 are the same in 2013. Being honest with myself and those I affiliate with is never a bad thing.

I Know The Feeling........

It Happens In An Instant

In the blink of an eye things change. A trigger is hit. A switch is flipped and your perspective changes.......

Let's Do This.......

Comes With The Territory......

People always mention to me "Ooooh we're cool with so many women..." as if it's some kind of weird thing. They think it's some kind of 24/7 wonder land and I never understood why. People are people. A lot of what I do and just how the chips fall out around ladies which fine. But what folk don't think about is the other stuff that comes with those interactions.

Humans are social creatures and as such we genuinely tend to pair up. That results in me not being able to interact too much with a person without assumptions being made to the depth of my relationships. I used to think this was a youth driven thing but it's actually gotten worse with age. To be honest I think social media has helped feed into many of your more juvenile characteristics. So yeah, watchers be they friend, foe or complete stranger continues to make up their own story line for me and what I must be doing with folk.

Only those that really know me or heaven forbid stop to actually ask me know that my social reality is no where near the fantasy that people envision.  And on occasion I get put into some pretty lame positions because on others assumptions and twisted imaginations. Usually for the sake of keeping the peace I just let it ride. It's often not worth the energy.

"Oh, that's what you think? You don't KNOW but you going to do what your doing based off an assumption? Ok, knock yourself out. I'll just be over here doing what I always do." 

That's usually how it goes down. And be clear, just cuz I know folk that's not some stamp of automatic loyalty. Or at the very least understand that many times there are conditions that can again put me in an interesting space with people. Nothing says "Screw you Jason." then ending up on the outs with someone because their man of the moment has an issue with me. Yeah when those instances arise I'm always the expandable piece of the equation. It used to hurt a lot now it's just part of the game. Oh well, those are the breaks...........

I Been Puttin' It In......

.....I'ma need folk to hold up their end of things.

Still Realizing Truths......

For years I've really allowed others to set the tone of our relationships. Truthfully because I don't have a taste for conflict and didn't want to risk losing folk so I'd rather accommodate people to keep the peace. That was only a temporary fix and now I see the full picture so much clearer......I wont lose anyway that doesn't want to lose me.

Life is Change

Some changes just take longer to happen and regardless of how you elect to acknowledge it, it's happened.

Connections....

Couldn't Say It Better

 "Live without pretending, love without depending, listen without defending, speak without offending." - Raven

Does This Apply To You

Keeping it light this Hump Day but here's a thought.....

DO YOU EVER GET A REALLY GOOD HUG FROM SOMEONE AND YOU’RE LIKE WAIT NO HUG ME MORE

Summer Update Vlog....It's Life

Summer Update on the Blvd: How's Life Treating You from Nightfall 914 on Vimeo.

Re Evaluating Myself

How do you feel so low yet feel so high at the same time.....

The depths of current situations plunging me into the abyss.....

The potential of life building steps moving upwards towards greatness....

So much of what I've defined myself by I'm questioning now....

It will either be the greatest validation or the most painful reality check yet.

The Word is CON·VEN·IENCE

The quality of being suitable to one's comfort, purposes, or needs: the convenience of living near shops, schools, and libraries.

Friendship should not be based on the above......

Memorial Day.......RIP Dave

Never Forget

David Ayala

New Rochelle H.S Class of 98'

4/17/1980 - 4/6/2005

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Make A Decision......

Let's get right to it. I'm back and I see not a lot has changed. That's cool because I'm definitely charged up and ready to make things happen with or without folks. I told myself earlier in the year that I wasn't going into the summer wasting energy on those that 100% locked in with me. In truth it's not a hard thing to do but apparently its harder for others then I would have expected. Say what mean and mean what you say. What do you stand for? What are you working towards? These are all questions I've asked before. For the first 5-6 months of the year I've watched. I've observed. Who's just talking, who's just trying to get by without putting in some work? I see it and know who is who. I'm forgiving by nature but time is rolling on and objectives have to be met. People will get left behind unfortunately. Not because I want to but because I have to.

A question was given to me to apply to those I keep in my circle. If I treated them how they treat me would they want me as their friend? It's all pretty simple yet folk make it so complex. Lapses of communication, broken agreements....if we were doing business it would be grounds to void a contract but because its friendship the b.s is cool? No, no it is not.....

Let's see who's gonna be in the mix for these 2013 Summer days :) I want everyone I care about on board but it doesnt seem like that is going to happen....

Happy Birthday Evita

I can think of no better way to close out the Month of Me then acknowledging the Birthday of my dear friend Evita Robinson. I've said tons about her so I'll keep it simple. 

Happy Birthday Evita!

 2013 Is progressing even better then imagined!!!

Happy Birthday Mz. J!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In the midst of the "Month of Me" I have to take this time to express my heartfelt love and admiration for this young woman. As one of my dearest friends we've had so many great memories. Through good, bad, ups and downs I've been truly blessed to have you in my life. It's hilarious to think back on the initial interactions that led to our friendship and now you know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you.

On this your Birthday I wish you nothing but happiness, joy, love and peace. I will always be here for you Jillz. Have an amazing birthday!!!!!