Time Heals All Wounds.......

......but will distance and permanent disdain come with the healing? I couldn't fault her if it did....

This wasn't part of the plan

1 month to calm down and refocus, a lil birthday love and then back to business. I guess it was foolish to think things would pan out so quickly on the unemployment front but it is what it is. Perhaps this is just me being a lil pissed at the job I thought I had on Friday that didn't pan out. Maybe. It's also the fact that I feel that my actual works have not yet lived up to the potential I've felt in me for so long. There's no panic or anything just an awareness of that time isn't a luxury that I have anymore. I need a boost of some sorts.

It will come. I just have to keep on traveling my path.........so much for plans.

Again and Again.....

No sooner has the first day of the month passed then I find myself listening to a sobbing distraught female friend going through another ordeal with a low life guy that she got too caught up with. Not gonna put her business out in the street but I continue to observe the continuous pattern that loneliness and insecurity bring about. Not only in her but in a growing list of people I know. As time progresses it's not just a matter of "oh my boyfriend is cheating on me" that I'm hearing from people. Now extreme words like love, marriage, kids and what not get thrown into the equation. In the midst of playing the game, these lames don't merely get my friends to "like" them, they get falsely elevated to levels of potential partner or soulmate.
In the end all I can do is listen and offer the support that time will heal all wounds.

On one hand I believe that we are never to old to learn, change and evolve. At the same time I understand that for some people they are who and what they are and change is very, very difficult. So same folk may just have to repeat certain things quite a few times before it finally sets in. That's why I have the collective of people around me that I do. I appreciate what everyone brings to the table with the understanding that everyone brings something different that satisifies something that another person might not do. You might not have learned your lesson but I know people that have.

We seem to understand this with friends, but dammit when those feelings and emotions start to build the reasoning goes out the window everytime. Every single time without fail. I believe I was talking with Evita when I told her that I honestly want to hear about my peoples finding someone that they can actually develop that real relationship with. Unfortunately, the past has not revealed this to me. Perhaps it's the way these guys get described to me or the sudden shock of there rise to importance but I always end up having the suspect feeling about these "here today gone tomorrow" supermen.

We all have our relationship mistakes, trials and tests. But it's with the hope that we not repeat these same mistakes. It's no exact science and as I believe, If your single you only have but so much right to give advice but in the end it always sucks witnessing a close friends hopes for happiness shatter.

Preparing to exit one of the toughest years......

Here's a creative look back at some of the events of 2K9. This week will be very reflective in nature yet positive in preparations for the future.