....just zoning......

The earth's celestial partner is out slightly lit minutes after midnight,
I stand here in reflective contemplation of what this years been like,
Did wrong and a did right could have done more but that's life,
That's just one to grow on as it's 20/20 hindsight,
I spoke my mind without doubt, remorse or uncertainty,
Held to my beliefs even as my heart was hurting me,
Thoughts of what if's and what could have been abounded,
I love you's sharps and pointed had my soul at times clouded,
But believe I rebounded and with inclined direction,
I evolve with other step and embrace my imperfections,
Guardian status continuously upon me has appointed
like heavenly anointed and in the end I do enjoy it.
That I can be he whose there without fail to ease sorrow,
Put your weight on my shoulders and from me strength you can borrow,
And I won't expect a return because by now you have learned,
You smile and peace of mind is the result I aim to earn,
I'll keep giving till it hurts and even then only I'll know,
And once I feel the pain then the harder I'll go and the longer I'll flow,
Then the most high says to cease cuz I'll always be this still I'm resting in peace,
You see I'm just a piece put in this place and given a precise purpose,
And for me not to act on this makes my existence pretty worthless,
I'm a fraction of a faction that's loathed for torrid action,
BlacC man not loved by his own is what happens and that fuels my passion to
to be that smallest percentile,
And its no light cake walk but more like the great mile,
So I may sip white and drink brown to zone out once in a few whiles,
Never off point just a man with his own style,
So I look up and smile at that crescent moon in the midnite,
I pray to keep living life and do my best to live right,
Let me follow my senses and operate how its best feels,
I've felt moments of glory and sorrow that's been so real,
Slow to heal but I wear scars proudly my silent movements dwarf these boasting loudly,
914 is where to find me just playing my part,
Wish a fruitful future as the new year starts,