What Would Batman Do?

Who Am I Really?

It's the smaller things that make the difference.......

While I do may best to "be good" I've realized that this years trials and rough moments have touched my spiritual core in a way. Not in a "there is no God" type of way but more so in the little things that I do that don't seem major to others but I notice them.

I was always one to say prayers before sleep and right thing in the morning. Prayer has become much more sporadic. Is it because I'm tired of the disappointments I've had to endure this year? Getting hopes up and then having to say to myself well if it didn't happen God must have a plan for it. Inside I know that's true but I'm human and after awhile I can only do so much before I feel let down.

So, I need to get back to that form of internal personal communication.....

...Not Sure About Anything..........

I'm in a period of serious self evaluation, soul searching and questioning. This year has thrown challenges at me at a rapid pace and while I feel I've been able to avoid being knocked down, I'm mad that I haven't made any progress forward. I'm not here to just get by. I was at a lil bbq yesterday in Y-O and I was chattin' with a childhood friend of my friend who happens to live in the same town as me, about all the old hustle and side jobs I used to have. It was later that night that it struck how much I've abandoned that. Not to mention my frustration that I didn't save more of that money. I was the guy that was down for anything that had a nice payoff. To avoid being used up by greed and run into the ground, I stepped back and become the guy that would be anything for a select few. No money needed.

So now where am I. The employment instability is pressure. Life's unexpected issues is pressure. The social conversational life of a late 20's adult now includes marriage, cohabitation, kids and all those other life impacting topics. It's not a game anymore. I'm recollecting my sense right now. More within my own private spaces then for the masses to see. Either a fall and become a regular guy or a remain the unique force I've been for so long.

Time will tell.

After the jump is a piece that was emailed to me from Evita's significant other. It was something shared with him that adds an interesting perspective to where I and maybe a lot of people are at in life right now. Keep a open mind to the basic ideas.

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Out of the Office.......

.....wtf man......

I swear its about 2:30pm and I really feel like I'm just waking up...not the best thing considering I've been at work since 8:30am.I guess yesterday/last night's Dell repair session took a lot more out of me then I thought. It's all good through. I'll be back in the mix soon. This is officially a cool out day, so everyone enjoy it however you can.