Balance......

Easter weekend went too fast for me but isn't that always the case. This Easter was low key but very nice. Family, church, the usual. I was asked to speak at service a little bit. I spoke on "Hope". Not in a want to be like Obama kind of hope but more the spiritual end of things. But in the midst of preparing my words and delivering them and even through out the course of service I'm juggling emotions. I make no bones about who I am and my faith is real, yet I do live a real life. It's been filled with ups, downs, proud moments and things I hope never get known. Many look at church goers as perfectionists or hypocrites. I personally think its just living life with all it's inconsistencies. Can I be in a club enjoy a drink and be in church the next morning?Yes, because my deserve to relax and social has never ruled my life. I think it's not as much about what we do but what is the mindset and priority we place on it. But Hey we can all justify any and all of our actions. I see that on a constant basis.
I feel I'm a good person, FAR from perfect and most definitely flawed but who isn't. The balance of pride and guilt only means that I have a conscious and it's served me well thus far. I just hope to live, grow and when its all said and done you I did what I was put here for.