Dealing With It.......

I feel like this period is what I was meant for. Not the stress and uncertainties of a relationship but the chase to be what I feel I'm supposed to be. My entire life I was told what folk foresaw for me. They saw success. And now as the environment around me shifts I'm trying to be just that. It's not easy, its quite hard, its frustrating, its full of self doubt, it's sprinkled with envy and questioning....it's already cost me thing that many have no idea of. I can't stop the pursuit but lord knows it takes a toll on me. I'm man.......but is it that simply a matter of my physical make up. Its a struggle, I must win.......no matter what.....

Preparing For A New Chapter....Bigger & Better Things.

2010 was many year of instability, unease and adaptation. I worked 7 out of 12 months on 3-4 separate jobs. For someone that had always had steady work it was a new feeling. Now I get ready for another assignment that could very well be a launch pad for a new level of career growth (not to mention income).

Yesterday my good friend Kara surprised me with a show of support for my new position and somehow without asking me got exactly what I planned on getting myself next week.

A mean Black tie, cuff-links and pocket square set. So this is just a thank you for a the gift and a public thank you to all that have supported me. Know that it was appreciated beyond measure.

This wasn't part of the plan

1 month to calm down and refocus, a lil birthday love and then back to business. I guess it was foolish to think things would pan out so quickly on the unemployment front but it is what it is. Perhaps this is just me being a lil pissed at the job I thought I had on Friday that didn't pan out. Maybe. It's also the fact that I feel that my actual works have not yet lived up to the potential I've felt in me for so long. There's no panic or anything just an awareness of that time isn't a luxury that I have anymore. I need a boost of some sorts.

It will come. I just have to keep on traveling my path.........so much for plans.

Mom knows best.....

I know where I get my optimistic view of life and it's crazy circumstances from. It's definitely something I got from my mom. Her job unceremoniously laid her off back in May and things were a lil rough while trying to adapt but she always had a positive view on things. So as I prepare to exit the work force, this Friday marks her last day of unemployment before starting her new job on Monday.

Everything happens for a reason.

Final Countdown.......

So the J-O-B ends this week. After Friday it's me, myself and I for a serious reconstruction plan. Some much needed me time to clear the mind and re focus on whats important and vital and very get a good jump on this year. I've got a good ability to see positive in what many my see as negative situations and I'll need that through this process. But in spite of the issues in the job market I'm really looking forward to this.

(I kinda started celebrating my freedom last nite.....too much alcohol but ooooh well.)