The Fear of LonelyNites.....

Been meaning to write this for a quite awhile now. "Inspiration" though was never lacking......I'm getting thoughts off my mind about the effects of love on my people. From my simple vantage point I observe so much. 99% of the time I do so in silence. We're all adults here so at this point of my life I let folk do what they do. I've posted before that love is the most powerful force of Earth, but I'm also thinking that Fear doesnt rank too far below it. The fear of being alone, that seems to be so much at the heart of the thing I'm seeing recently. Tale after tale, story upon story of unqualified lames and low lifes, grown man wannabes and pretenders being chosen by women who deserve better....who know better. None lacking for intelligence, self respect or common sense yet stoically I look upon the events that play out without a shred of surprise.

What transformed yesterdays "love of her life" into today's bane of a her existence. Such changes happen more often then I can count. Was he that vile being to begin with and merely put on an awarding winning acting performance? Was he genuinely a good guy that was somehow twisted into this new person by events I'm not privy to? I mean its also true that after a certain point you can't merely blame the "other" person. You put enough unsuccessful social dealings on your record and you have to look into that mirror and re-evaluate what you bring to the problem, who you interact with, who you attract, etc.....

Maybe it's the Summer season and emotions are hot and heavy but the "interesting" interactions and questionable moves are at an all time high. Russian roulette within the sheets, jumping off a cliff with a "Love"  umbrella hopeful it will slow down your descent. You see this isn't about judgement. This isn't anything I take joy in being right about. I HATE seeing my people, especially my female friends hurt and distraught. But I'm a realist and I can't cry and sob when decisions lack a certain degree of common sense. No, love has no blueprint or official game plan but the sky is still blue, water is still wet and we as people are given enough to make better decisions then I witness. Is the fear of being alone that over powering? Does it really allow you to over look the disrespect, abuse, lies, violence and hope against hope that things work out? What are the standards and requirements applied to being that man? Your Man? Or is it something that just sounds nice to proclaim. I've seen it work and I've seen it fail. Happiness does have certain requirements and in truth everyone doesn't have it. 

At times I wish I could just beat the life out of these guys.......would definitely be a bit therapeutic. Or better yet I just wish my folks success to failure ratio would balance off a little more.....

Can I wake up to this????

Yes I'm talking to you. :p

I want to be told this just one time....

"The Royal Penis is Clean, Your Highness"


My Life would be complete.

Inspired by L-Doll

Eddie Murphy Approved

Me and She

2002

Ok so for years on my online travels I've written and chronicled many of the things that have effected me and played a major role in the man I've grown to be. Well this woman has played a PIVOTAL role in that. Everyone has a person that gets to them, that at times can be both your strength and/or your weakness. She's that individual to me. It's a hell of friendship and I wouldn't have it any other way. We've had mega Ups and Super down but for whatever reason we're always bound to cross paths and make sure the other is good.

The references I make to "Lonelynites", in all honesty, she was as directly responsible for that in her own way as any single person. Long story but the end result is me being who I am today, so its good. The Love is super strong and beyond words, which says something considering how wordy I am. It's a Me and Her thing I guess. Anyway, Pix and a Vid of our randomness during her NY visit. Its an Online view of my Offline world.....

Boy You Nasty

Chris Rock Said It Best

"Women your man is NASTIER then you could possibly imagine.Most guys have been watching porn since they were 13,14 years old."

By the time we're "grown" we have so much nasty filthy sexually wild stuff in our minds that it's HIGHLY unlikely you ladies will ever really know everything we'd consider doing to y'all.



I was thinking about that and can honestly say I surprised myself with what I could imagine myself doing if I released all controls, restraints and really didn't give a fucC.



Is that just a guy a thing or do women have twisted lude acts that they'd lay on us men if given the chance? Is that just a guy a thing or do women have twisted lude acts that they'd lay on us men if given the chance?

Forbidden Fruit

While usually Hump Day brings me to thoughts of what I would do or have done. What about those situations that aren't so clear cut? By that I mean, those people that you KNOW you can get down with. Or they've str8 up TOLD you that you can get it but for whatever reason something inside tells you it might not be the best idea. And even if your will power and control win over and you don't dive into it you always wonder. You always think "what if".I think everyone has at least one "proceed with caution" type person if not a few of them.

Temptation is bitch.It really is......

Best Times on(under) the West Side Highway......

While Nore had folk risking life and limb trying to "start getting head on the West Side Highway" I realized that adrenaline rush aside, I could get into a lot more pleasure under the highway then on it. Strictly by accident did we realize this convenient hideaway. But it quickly became our spot for spontaneous activity when traveling between point A and B. Perhaps that's why I have a hard time seeing myself in anything other then a SUV. You see what made this special to me wasn't so much the activity as we had made various "stops" around Manhattan but this lady wasn't the type with sex on the brain 24/7 (at least not around me) but when she wanted to let loose it was a marvelous thing. To this day I remember one stormy night session that concluded with her saying "I do that because I love the sounds you make.It let's me know I'm going a good job." OMG Can you top that?!?! I mean really? Sexy, sweet and considerate. They don't make'em like that anymore.

And that's what I missed more then anything.Beyond the ,with the intent and goal to make me happy. I never got what was so great about me to warrant that treatment but damn it's hard to drive by that FDR exit without revisiting those times we had.
But it's never to late to create new memories......





Bill Approves

HAPPY HUMP DAY

Always glad to make it to Wednesday. No real witty Hump inspiring thoughts at the moment. My mind is a lil jumbled and the recent wave of online foolishness doesn't have me thinking about sex enough to write on it. But hey I'm a guy so any moment something may get me in that mood. We'll see it's still early......perhaps I'll find a spark somewhere or from someone.


I need inspiration dammit!!!!!!

NBA ALL STAR WEEKEND

Ya Hip Hop Bastard that are all in Phoenix right now better behave. You that's a lot to ask but please lets have a big entertainment without any bullshit.Please????

UPDATE: Too Late





"Niggas"

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